Don't believe in your own lies

I have decided to start going to AA. I have had an awful. That started this summer because I told myself. Suuuuure I can drink during vacation?!? What could possibly go wronf? So yeah.. everything goes wrong. Here I found myself drinking on a effing Monday, missing work on Tuesday. I drank because I can't stand the boredom. But that is a lie. I have tons of stuff I need to do. I'm tired of being mean and sensitive drunk. I'm tired of feeling like a shitty gf and sister. I'm going to take it one day at a time. And pledge not to drink. Thanks for existing! Very grateful for this sub.